What happened to that happy, optimistic kid that I used to be?

The short answer is: I don't know. I almost lost control twice in the last  24 hours. Anger. Unreasonable anger.

Something's got to change.

I need a nap.

Matt

Do you have any idea how refreshing it is to work in a kitchen where everybody wants to be there and wants to do a good job? Amazing.

Day two down and I'm gettin back into the flow of a commercial kitchen.

I had the best burrito i've ever had in my life today. It was made by the two hispanic ladies that work in the bakery.

Boulder/Longmont is awesome.

I like it here.

Matt

Moving on up.....

I found out today that baring any unforseen circumstances I will be doing my internship in Boulder Colorado at the restaurant called The Flagstaff House. I am pretty excited and a wee bit intimidated. I've already pretty much found an apartment that will let me rent for just two months with no penalty. SWEET! It's not going to be cheap but it's well worth it to get this kind of experience.

To check it out go here: http://www.flagstaffhouse.com/

It's going to be pretty kickass in my opinion.

Anybody want to come visit me this summer? hahaha!

Matt

doing much better.

That last post was a product of some stress I've been feeling. I've taken care of some things and feel much better.

I still believe I missed a boat somewhere but at least now I feel like there might be another one coming along eventually.

I went up to Utica square in Tulsa today to talk to a couple of chefs about interning this summer. The Polo Grill, Wild forks and The Stonehorse Cafe. To my astonishment they actually showed some interest in me. I think I could work at any of them but I think I'd be happiest at the Stonehorse. I'm supposed to hear from them all in the next week or so.

I also got a call out of the blue today from a restaurant, in Boulder, CO that I sent my resume to, telling me that they liked the look of my resume but didn't have any open positions for the summer. the guy basicly called me to tell me he liked my resume. I was pretty pumped.

I miss certain people badly. others....... not so much.

I'm making a return visit to Stillwater startin tomorrow.

I've got one semester left at school. 8 weeks of internship. 8 weeks of Capstone and then I'm done. I have a feelin that my last semester is going to be the one I learn the most in. I'm so ready.

When I'm done I think I'm seriously going to apply to work on a cruise ship. If that doesn't work out I'm going to pick out 50 different restaurants across the country and send resumes to them to see what kind of responses I get. I'm going to move somewhere. I just don't know where yet.

I think it would be really cool to work in the Vancouver during the winter Olympics next year. Or how about the next World Cup in South Africa? How Sweet would that be?

I'll see you when I see you,

Matt 

Do you ever just kinda feel like you missed the boat somewhere?

Do you remember tht question you asked me that I didn't really answer? I have an answer now.

Do you ever just want to scream about something but can't?

Tonight was not a good night.

I would kill for somebody to talk to about all this shit but I've never let anybody get that close. How sad is that?

another sleepless night inside my own head.

Matt